Today is my first blog of I hope many to come in sharing my story and journey with stuttering and all the emotions and feelings that go along with it. It is my desire for this blog to help and encourage those that also struggle in their day to day lives with stuttering. Having HOPE is such an important thing to move forward.
Weeks ago we all heard the very sad story of what happen to Gabrielle Giffords and others in Arizona. This was just such a sad day, and I still keep everyone in my thoughts and prayers! Gabby's doctors mentioned they put a breathing tube to make sure Gabby had air. This was very important in helping her stay alive. When I was about 10 years old I had surgery due to stomach issues. I remember very well waking up out of surgery and having that awful breaking tube in. I started gaging. I already have a very hard time taking pills that are big, so you can imagine how it was having this big tube down your throat. I remember wanting so badly to tell the doctors I'M AWAKE and get this thing out of me!!! But I could not. This to me is what stuttering is like. No we dont have a breathing tube in, but its like having one in to me sometimes. Wanting SOOOOOOOOOOO badly to say something and you cannot.
I went through a season of depression for almost 3-4 years, yes I know thats a long time. I had lost hope. I was not the person I wanted to be, and things were just changing. Through the grace, love and mercy of God I'm coming out. Its a day by day walk and I cannot tell you how thankful I am. I'm still dealing with some shame and guilt and other emotions, but I know this journey has a bigger purpose and for that I have hope and excitment. I hope to share in the future my stuggle with depression and what you can do day by day to help.
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