Coming out of hiding

For many years, well lets just say for pretty much all my life so far :) I've not talked much about my stuttering or that I stutter at all. I've become very good at avoidence and well more avoidence. I think it comes down to trying to be or look perfect. Its funny to me how much shame and guilt you can feel for something that is completly not your fault.  No one wants to be someone who struggles with stuttering, or any other hard thing in life, example ( cancer and so on). Its like because we take longer to say a word or in some cases cannot say a certain word we fail. These feelings and emotions are very real, however I'm learning they are NOT TRUE.  Our emotions can sometimes lie to us! We are NOT failures because we may stutter on a word.

Focusing to much on these bad feelings is not good, for many years thats what I did. I'm learning how important it is to NOT live by what I feel, but what I know if the truth about myself. I'm a child of God and He loves me no matter what! One thing I have found about stuttering is it really does force you to slow down and really think about the words you say, which is a VERY GOOD THING!! I know many people that really should slow down and think before they speak. I have friend that just says anything off the top of her head and its got her into alot of not so good situations if you know what I mean.  Words really do have power and we should really think before we speak. Life and death are in the power of the tongue - proverbs 18:21.

So each day I'm a little closer to coming out of hiding that I have and still do struggle with stuttering. To be honest dealing with stuttering has affected every single part of my life from frendships, relationships, education, and many others.  I'm learning to be more open and let the healing continue. Thinking positive thoughts about yourself is key, renew your mind each day and focus on what God says about you.